See Ya 2020
Posted on January 20 2021
So a couple of weeks ago, new years eve actually, I said I wasn’t ready to look back on the year, but in time I would. We’re now deep in January and I have to be honest, not much has changed, I can’t look back.
I’ve just come into the studio after a week off with my two boys (hubby had to head back to work) and I tell you, it was BLOODY good for the soul! I walked, I read, I sat, I swam, I slept, I got to be ‘fun Mum’ with my boys and it felt BLOODY amazing!
And what I realised was, I don’t want to look back – 2020 was just too much – I’m only interested in looking forward. And while I’m not a resolution kinda gal, there are some massive changes coming in 2021.
This year, my health (mental and physical), will be the top of every bloody ‘weekly to do list’. I think, I’m a good friend, but I tell you, I’ve been an absolute shit friend to myself last year. Horrid! That stops now. I’m going to bloody love myself the way I love those bloody beautiful, bat shit crazy, ride or die, non judgemental women I’m blessed to call my friends (actually I call them lots of different names, but you get the drift)!
And finally, this man here, James (otherwise known as the hubby, Mr Shabby, old mate); well, 2020 nearly bloody broke us. I want to say it was one specific thing - but it wasn’t. It was everyday life. Covid, changes to his job, me running a business in a pandemic, raising two boys (jeez I thought boys were meant to raise themselves), who didn’t do the washing, who got more sleep, ships in the night, miscommunication, no communication - you know, just everyday bloody life! We (and by we, I think I mean me) completely lost sight of who we were together. We were (most days) nailing the parenting gig, but floundering everywhere else. I don't ever want to be there again.
2020 left the two of us battered and a little bruised; but he stood by my side, holding my hand saying ‘we’ll be ok’. So now it’s my turn to hold your hand Mr Shabby – it nearly broke us, but we made it through and I genuinely feel we’re coming back stronger.
2021, I’m bloody coming for you!